You think you can't move on from a certain phase... you read your horoscope daily in hopes that it will shed some light on your confused life & offer a kind of higher guidance, you try to focus on other things, bitch and whine, gossip about other people's lives... and yet, all the moving on you actually do is at a superficial level. you still come back to base 1. the only thing that keeps you going is that you have a fantastic ability not to dwell on the shitty areas in your life, and a strong sense of self preservation which you try to utilize.

And then you stop trying, you're doing what you have to, going about life in a mundane routine way.... and suddenly you're immersed in another situation you thought you werent ready for... but guess what...you are... and you've suddenly moved on from phase 1 to phase 2. and as with all new phases in your life, phase 2 is exciting, confusing, and occupies most of your thoughts.

And you're happy. not happy in the way of just going about doing things, but exhiliratingly content. so happy that you feel like you've been injected with a 24/7 mood upper. so happy that you appreciate the sun shining even in a place like Dubai where its always friggin shining.

I love life.

lesson: if you think your life sucks, you're bored out of your wits, you cant find a purpose, everything's bloody mundane... just sit back. don't go looking for it, it will come to you... and you're on your happy high once more. And no, i'm not drunk, nor have i taken an overdose of E... i'm just happy. As Owen would say... Life's beautiful:)